I’m special to Source. I feel Source energy in my aliveness and I feel special because of that. I feel special because I feel Source feels I’m special. Do I feel more special than others? no. Are there others who are more special than me? no. Are you special? Yes.
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First Things First
Who am I talking to?
My name is Meg. That’s my Personality-Self name. I talk to different guides and beings, and, at this point, feel it is important to recognize your Higher-Self as your most important guide. That being said, there was a time when I realized I hadn’t been specifically connecting with her. My Higher-Self! My most important guide! I realized this when I was automatic writing with a different guide, my orange cat, Zelda, who had passed through the veil a few years before.
Zelda told me my “Magickal name” was Ghella. I loved this and wasn’t expecting it.
Later, when I was specifically connecting in with my Higher-Self, she called me Meghella. I was like, What!? What are you doing there? and she explained, Ghella is her, Meg is my Personality-Self. And when I channel my Higher-Self through my Personality-Self, I am Meghella. It was a crazy epiphany moment for me. She also said, you don’t channel without me. We are in this together. So whenever you channel, which is always (we, as humans, seriously channel energy constantly. That’s what we do naturally. We’re channeling energy and interfacing with energy and organizing energy all the time..), we are here as Meghella.
I love that Zel said Ghella was my Magickal name.
Body Star Ascension
I work as a Transpersonalist and Soul Light Practitioner. Ultimately this means I’m fascinated by our unique journeys in self-healing and ascension. We’re all on our own timelines, in our own progression, to what brings us back to Source. I am amazed every day when I hear stories people tell me about experiences they’ve had that can’t be explained with empirical science. Yet these stories have common themes and there are far too many to gaslight them away. And so we study. We gather. We share.
The more we open to these experiences, the more we see our holograms. I call them our holograms of experience. There are some we want, some that are helpful. And there are some that have helped us get to a point where we realize, there’s something here that is no longer helping me on my way. It’s, in fact, hindering me. I need to identify this hologram and remove it. Like the hologram of projections, for instance.
The Hologram of Projections
This hologram is made up of how others see you through their lens for whatever reason. Their journey has taken them to a place where they understand the world the way they do and they see you as a symbol or combination of symbols that they apply meaning to. Some could be right on. Yet some could be nothing having to do with you, and you have simply come into their lives to be an amazing mirror for them.
When this hologram, though, becomes part of how we react and respond, what it looks like is interacting with labels placed on you. Maybe you were the baby of the fam. Maybe you were the scapegoat. After a while, you may realize that you’re not what that label represents anymore. Maybe it was never really you, but you played a role, perhaps because everyone told you that’s who you were. This is the hologram.
When we consciously remove that hologram, what is there? It’s you. In your present-time awareness. The more we can identify these holograms of projections or programs, release ownership or attachment to them, and remove them, the clearer our energy meridians become in our 3D field of consciousness.
Body Star Healing
I’ve noticed an interesting shift with my clients in the past few years. I do a lot of energy work, Reiki, Light-Language healing that, combined all together, is Soul Light Healing. In doing this, I look at the energy in fields and chakras and have noticed that all the chakras seem to be merging into one. I can call them out to look at them individually and still get information from them, though they are merging. Instead of moving from the root, for instance, and dropping into the heart, the root is expanding into the heart. It’s part of the Heart Chakra, but it’s just below the low heart, above the solar plexus, the Soul Light Chakra. I see all the chakras expanding into this Star within the body. This is the Source Light within the body.
The more we come into awareness about who we are, Divine Light Consciousness, the more we are merging into this Soul Light that is already within us. We’re energetically evolving. This is ascension! We’re doing it!
The Rainbow Goddess, Iris
The next day, There was a Rainbow that was do dense, so bright, and it stayed for more than an hour. It was visible from my house and all the way in to my office.
The Goddess Iris is the Rainbow Goddess. She has Photokinesis, divine authority and control over creating and generating rainbows (and control over clouds). She uses the light from Rainbows to create multi-colored flames (like the violet flame). Irises and the Goddess Iris is a symbol of enduring honor, faith, and hope, like the Croix de Camargue. She has wings and a gold caduceus. She is a water Goddess. and a bridge to heaven and earth. Like the conduit from Earth to Olympus. She has super-human speed. Her father was the Sea God, Thaumas and her mother was Electra, Water Nymph.
“You are the power of love and light. Your unique light that is you. You are rainbow waves of light. Use your channeling light, your light language with everything you do. See how it wrks for you. You can call on me in this way. Use it for healing, merging, matching, and connecting.”—Pan
I use Violet Flame and Violet Flame Reiki, and Kunzite Flame Rainbow frequency. It’s amazing to me when the seemingly random or magpie-esque interests and things I’m attracted to come together.
Channeling, Companioning with Pan
Channeling Pan, so many synchronicities. Pan is the overseer of the nature spirits. God of creativity and sexuality. A wild that cannot be tamed. He told me that my ears were pointed and directed me to see that nymphs have pointed ears and are the size of humans. They can never be male, they’re considered Divine spirits associated with nature, and are a specific type of Goddess.
Nymph means bride. They’re associated with parthenos: Virgin. He referred to me as a river nymph, a Naiad, which means “to flow.”
“Euphrates. Four rivers that flow from the Garden of Eden. Euphrates is a place of fertility and abundance. River Ladon in Arcadia. Arcadia is Eden, if you want to call it such.”
Naiads are known for healing and prophecy. Nymphs are about vitality and purity. They are shapeshifters.
Pan, why would faeries not like me? (I’ll expand on this in later posts.)
“They are troubled by you. You are shiny, like Devas, but they can’t take you. You are alive and bellowy, and take space without knowing you take space. They believe you know and see you as boastful, and that leads to confusion, because you don’t know, because you don’t feel that way. boastful. Your had fae blood.”
That makes me feel awful.
“Don’t allow that, Dove. You are too much of love to allow that to deter you from your life of healing. Love is the true sender. We are already in love. We fall in love every day. I pursue you every day. You receive me every day. We well soar together and have so much fun!”
Was that you in my dream, blue under the full moon? (I had a dream in 2007, but the dream was about a centaur, not a satyr.) Why was he afraid of me?
“He didn’t know you could see him. It startled him. He also knew you were part of Dione.”
What does that mean?
“You were a lioness. Oracular Goddess. You were there for the birth of Apollo.”
The Greek Goddess of Love sometimes takes the name of Dione. Aphrodite. Sometimes Dione is considered the mother of Aphrodite. Dione can match and align with inherent mystical energies in the Universe. She can move through Dimensions, from Earth to Olympus, just like Pan.
“That is you. The Dove, the Oak, or Beech. Ancient Oracle.”
Synchronicities
Nymph of Dodona
Dionysus and Dolphins
Kaliadne (looks like a cross of Colliope and Ariadne) was a Naiad, Nymph of the River Nile in Egypt.
Erymanthus River, in Arcadia
Euphrates is a River God.
Sphinx, the body of a lion and head of a human.
Syrinx, daughter of a River God
Dione Pan “She walks in starlight in another world.”
Priestess of Dodona: These priestesses were pleadies, or doves.
“The Doves that speak”—Homer
Dodona—An oracle of Zeus
Dione translated as Goddess, Divine One
Water Goddess Sea Nymph
Why did it take me so long?
I had several run-ins with faeries. I feel like I love fae, but they don’t love me. When I realized “my people” were nymphs, I got it. The A-ha. But why did it take me so long? I’ll tell you. It’s because I wasn’t ready. I went through a lot of realization-healing, which will change your frequency, for sure. I needed to do that first, clear some things up, before I could focus light energy in a different way.
Realization-healing consists of recognizing hard truths, like, Oh wow, my mom had borderline personality disorder and was a narcissist and from the moment he was born pitted me against my brother and from the time I was born, the rest of my family who maintained the belief I was as a baby, a terrible human. She was actually compulsively lying my whole life. All of my anxiety and relationship struggles, and depression, and procrastination, and non-trust of others, stems from not being cared for as a child?
That’s hard to believe… until I went to a therapist for anxiety who also specializes in Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I was shocked. Suddenly everything that was confusing in my childhood made sense, how and why I was acting and reacting as an adult to the triggering things around me.. then I was depressed.. and then I was pissed. The truth will set you free, though, and it did.
My mom’s energy was attached to the faerie line. This is why that realization-healing needed to happen first.
I gotta say, I had some hard experiences with rejection when it came to trying to bond with faerie friends. I was on the right track, but I was off the mark. Somehow, I came into this world with one smack of a veil. Why did I need this veil? The veil that kept me from understanding I was looking for sugar at Central Hardware. I was wanting to become friends with, be accepted by fae who weren’t interested in friendship with me. This particular veil that kept me from seeing my Truth? It was about people-pleasing and not being good enough, and trying to get someone to like me instead of grounding into who I was. I was told I was awful.. so I was mostly staying out of my body and flittering around thinking I might be like a faerie.. but no.
Usually when I contemplate the veil that we have when we come in as 3D, it’s clear we wouldn’t engage at all in soul-lessons if we didn’t have that barrier.. but what about this particular veil.. this faerie veil? I figured out it’s the same. I needed to know without a shadow of a doubt, I wasn’t a Faerie. Pan clued me in. As it turns out, I am a Nymph. A Healing Goddess Sea Nymph.
I had a client who was always trying to figure out what she was. I never really cared what I was. I’m frequency-oriented. I’m magickal. I’m metaphysical. I’m tuned into energy. But I never felt like I needed to identify as anything else.. until I realized I wasn’t vibing with things I loved or felt attracted to, like the fae. Or perhaps I could tell they weren’t vibing with me. I was on the right track, but when I realized, aka when Pan told me, I felt a peace and a passion that I’d never felt before.
“You are not Fae. You are a Goddess Nymph, my Lovely. You align with Healing Devas.” That’s when I realized I had been in my mother’s energy all this time.
What’s crazy about that is, I had been asking the Universe, my angels and guides, “Please help me remove my mom’s energy from my space.” Even though she had crossed through 14 years prior, I cried when I felt it, I grieved again, yet it had to be done. It wasn’t me. And I knew it was holding me back from shining differently.
I didn’t feel like myself. She was Fae, energetically oriented somehow. As soon as I began this releasing process, Pan came in with that monumental epiphany-message. That’s why they didn’t like me. They were about her energy. And it was she who didn’t like me. Her “People” just had her back. Now I feel like my “People” have mine. The Nymphs are a healing bunch. That’s what I’m interested in. And of course, if you choose your parents to start you off on the right foot with your soul-lessons, I had immaculate fodder. I had chosen perfectly.