I had several run-ins with faeries. I feel like I love fae, but they don’t love me. When I realized “my people” were nymphs, I got it. The A-ha. But why did it take me so long? I’ll tell you. It’s because I wasn’t ready. I went through a lot of realization-healing, which will change your frequency, for sure. I needed to do that first, clear some things up, before I could focus light energy in a different way.
Realization-healing consists of recognizing hard truths, like, Oh wow, my mom had borderline personality disorder and was a narcissist and from the moment he was born pitted me against my brother and from the time I was born, the rest of my family who maintained the belief I was as a baby, a terrible human. She was actually compulsively lying my whole life. All of my anxiety and relationship struggles, and depression, and procrastination, and non-trust of others, stems from not being cared for as a child?
That’s hard to believe… until I went to a therapist for anxiety who also specializes in Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I was shocked. Suddenly everything that was confusing in my childhood made sense, how and why I was acting and reacting as an adult to the triggering things around me.. then I was depressed.. and then I was pissed. The truth will set you free, though, and it did.
My mom’s energy was attached to the faerie line. This is why that realization-healing needed to happen first.
I gotta say, I had some hard experiences with rejection when it came to trying to bond with faerie friends. I was on the right track, but I was off the mark. Somehow, I came into this world with one smack of a veil. Why did I need this veil? The veil that kept me from understanding I was looking for sugar at Central Hardware. I was wanting to become friends with, be accepted by fae who weren’t interested in friendship with me. This particular veil that kept me from seeing my Truth? It was about people-pleasing and not being good enough, and trying to get someone to like me instead of grounding into who I was. I was told I was awful.. so I was mostly staying out of my body and flittering around thinking I might be like a faerie.. but no.
Usually when I contemplate the veil that we have when we come in as 3D, it’s clear we wouldn’t engage at all in soul-lessons if we didn’t have that barrier.. but what about this particular veil.. this faerie veil? I figured out it’s the same. I needed to know without a shadow of a doubt, I wasn’t a Faerie. Pan clued me in. As it turns out, I am a Nymph. A Healing Goddess Sea Nymph.
I had a client who was always trying to figure out what she was. I never really cared what I was. I’m frequency-oriented. I’m magickal. I’m metaphysical. I’m tuned into energy. But I never felt like I needed to identify as anything else.. until I realized I wasn’t vibing with things I loved or felt attracted to, like the fae. Or perhaps I could tell they weren’t vibing with me. I was on the right track, but when I realized, aka when Pan told me, I felt a peace and a passion that I’d never felt before.
“You are not Fae. You are a Goddess Nymph, my Lovely. You align with Healing Devas.” That’s when I realized I had been in my mother’s energy all this time.
What’s crazy about that is, I had been asking the Universe, my angels and guides, “Please help me remove my mom’s energy from my space.” Even though she had crossed through 14 years prior, I cried when I felt it, I grieved again, yet it had to be done. It wasn’t me. And I knew it was holding me back from shining differently.
I didn’t feel like myself. She was Fae, energetically oriented somehow. As soon as I began this releasing process, Pan came in with that monumental epiphany-message. That’s why they didn’t like me. They were about her energy. And it was she who didn’t like me. Her “People” just had her back. Now I feel like my “People” have mine. The Nymphs are a healing bunch. That’s what I’m interested in. And of course, if you choose your parents to start you off on the right foot with your soul-lessons, I had immaculate fodder. I had chosen perfectly.